tonnes of stuff

LIFE

the mood/morale at home is somewhat low and quiet. grandma's down w serious illness. i do consider myself unfilial not knowing exactly wat's wrong w her, i din listen attentively enuf when my mom first broke the news to me. i dun think it is v appropriate to ask my mom abt it since she's greatly affected by this incident. she's callin back everyday to check out on the status of my grandma, her mom. sigh. if i din hear wrongly the other time, my grandma's got some blood accumulation in the head or something. it is a serious case. the guys in the house become more sensitive in times of crisis like this. my dad's nonsensical remarks have gone down and i am more tolerant of my mom's never-ending inquries of my life, convo w ppl. my dad's flyin back to take a look at my grandma. my mom wants to go back too, but circumstances dont allow. mayb it sounds ridiculous but i can understand the dilemma of my mom. she jus cant go back. seein my mom in this state now really hurts. at least we are tryin to make life easily for my mom. tts wat a family is for. jus hope tt my grandma recovers really soon.

celebrated my dad's bday in advance today. my mom smiled. i can see tt the smile was embraced w joy. the dinner distracted my mom from her current problems n freed her from her anxiety. we had an enjoyable meal. i appreciated this meal v much, mayb due to jus coming back from field camp when i was deprived of many wonders of life.

NEW EXPERIENCES

the wk of isolation from comfort had made me realise certain facts of life. firstly, normal, plain water tastes sweet. really sweet. we were in shortage of water for the entire morning, everyone was working under the hot sun, slowly dehydrating. when the truck brought in the water, everyone was celebrating. deprivation works wonders! anyw, it wasnt jus me, but quite a no. of ppl commented tt the water throughout the 3 days tasted sweet, a lil sweet.

secondly, i guess we shudnt take ppl for granted. tts to staff ong. anyw, we do appreciate u but when the lazy bug comes, no one wants to work. i hope the platoon can give u the standard u want in future.. but really, u are a nice guy.. even though u always ask me to shut up. it was really funny when u keep whispering "f u, f u, shut up, f u fker" in my ear. lol

NOW

i dun really feel like slping. when i slp, the nxt thing i noe is when i wake up, it is time to pack stuff n book in. i dun really want to go back in camp. the freedom is too tempting. naive thinking ah? i guess it is jus a desperation move to delude myself - i am not wasting my civilian life on slping.. let the slping be done in camp?!

actually i dun really wanna go taiwan, if i got a choice, i would rather go back china w my dad to visit my grandma. sigh. jus hope tt my mom stays happier. i'll try not to let her get worried abt me.

a short break

a short break - a few hours of rest at home n i will be back in camp again. bookin out on sun morning n bookin in sun night, i guess i am too stoned to complain anymore, or i've temporarily matured again. jus do watever tt comes in ur way n hope everyone is happy.

sat's activity was not so tiring for me as compared to the rest of my section. i am glad i went to see the doc the day before, not to get status but to seek treatment for my coughin prob, it wouldnt be nice if it lasted thru the field camp coming up tml. but after yst's walking in the rain, i guess i din manage to recover in time. it is jus too short a rest.. haha

i signed out for 10 NVG. luckily only 1 had minor problems with the accessory. jus need a statement. i am quite pleased w myself. haha.

at least for now, i've completed 32k n got myself a combat skills badge.. not bad.. time to go