i simply love my style..

franky!

i guess i've jus gotten myself out of my trouble!
nice one!

it is finally over..
all smiles..

i jus need tt sentence n i found it..
thanx :D

kinda lonely

perplexity. wat is bothering me now?

"it feels nicer to be clicked than to click"

i dun wan to approach ppl to talk.. it is so against my character.. now i dun even feel like penning down my thoughts.. or i am too confused.. too much information to process.. cant categorize my thoughts sort them out n list them in an orderly manner..

i like this feeling of being alone.. i like it becos i am used to it.. the peaceful surrounding.. w no one arnd.. w the weather so nice these few days.. windy.. it really feels like paradise at home.. rappelz.. asura.. strider.. associated w the dark race.. the lonely kind of ppl.. jus like me.. mayb tts y i like tt character so much.. no more kahuna.. the name doesnt sound nice too.. lol..

listening to young folks sent by lsd.. although the lyrics doesnt sound v interesting.. tt music n the voice of the singers suit my feeling best now.. tt kinda tired of this world feelin.. tt kinda of restless voice.. using a bit of energy to sing louder at the chorus.. n the whistling..
somehow this song creates the image of a windy nite like now.. a couple sitting tog jus talkin softly to each other.. quite similar to my case? jus tt i am alone.. alone.. tts the keyword..

it will be esp exciting n it will definitely "save" me from being devoured by tt feeling of loneliness if someone talks to me now.. n leads the conversation.. i will be listening instead of talking.. i talked too much.. keepin quiet became somehow "cool"..

shud i adopt tt stand tt i always believed in? mayb i wun even follow wat i preach.. relationship problems are always so vexing.. i guess my expectations were too high.. i cant expect others to think the way i think.. it's kinda hurting to see tt line appear in the sms or on msn.. although i understan wat u really meant.. but the worst case scenario cant be tt.. if u were my mom.. i wud jus yelled at u.. tellin u straight how i feel.. even though it hurts.. but i cant make myself do tt.. i dun even feel like tellin u how i feel.. failure..

i think it is quite impossible to be close frens anymore.. jus normal ones.. or even not as close as normal ones.. to think abt it.. it is jus karma.. haha.. i created the trouble in the first place.. who shud suffer? haha.. me.. definitely..

amano ginji.. strike me!

lalala

after some meddling w my computer.. i got a virus.. or alot of viruses.. haha.. so fools out there, dun be like me, open any file which has "interesting" file names.. XD

norton antivirus.. is symantec getting smarter or my com getting pro-illegal stuff.. lol.. downloading norton tryin to get free subscription failed again n again.. i shall jus give it up.. it is wrong to do "illegal stuff" so i shant do tt.. (lol.. tryin to get myself feel better since i failed) i am a v lawful citizen.. i DUN download music.. (someone is lying thru his teeth)

i haf done a great job.. i reformatted my com jus to get rid of the virus.. I WON..

tt windows xp installation needs genunine cd key or aiyah i oso forgot wat it is called.. i cant find it at first.. den i realise it is pasted on the bottom of the laptop.. lol.. operation reinstall windows begins!

took some time.. before it really installing.. when it is done.. the com has no sound.. XD sound driver not installed.. finding all the cds in the package.. i happily assume one of them is.. but it isnt.. den as for the real cd.. i happily assumed it isnt.. cos it says "application and driver dvd".. i thought it was dvd driver only n it loaded slowly on the com.. in a fit of frustration, i reinstalled windows again.. with full formating n the not quick format i chose earlier on.. so it took like 2 hours for the windows to be done? i din keep track of time.. but it is v long.. no one will mind if i exaggerate a bit.. lol..

den installing the drivers.. applications.. msn messenger.. bla bla n my games.. update of the games are like super slow.. took an entire day to get the update done.. it always gets stuck at somewhere in the middle or the internet jus dc.. sigh..

anyw, as for now.. everything is back to "normal", meaning the antivirus still cant give me free subscription.. lol.. this entire episode begins w norton.. after one big round, norton still cant work.. lol.. the only gd thing is the speakers of the laptop is fixed.. no more buzzing irritating sounds.. WOOHOO pure sounds.. pure music.. pure.. pure!!! PURE!!! hopes someone shares my excitement..

happy bday to u.. it jus feels different.. sian.. qk tells me he may need more time to readjust his thinking.. isnt qk fickleminded.. indecisive? lol.. dun tell qk i said this or else.. i will b dead when qk finds out.. ok.. i shall pity qk since he isnt going thru a v nice period now.. lol

poor lsd.. his voice ran away.. aiyah.. ur voice is like gf lidat.. muz treat her nicely.. or else she'll run away.. i forsee someone is goin to run after me w a dirk.. ok.. too much rappelz..

n peiyi.. u shocked me!! ur fren teachin u to play world of warcraft? u actually play such games???! choose shaman as ur character. shaman suits u.. haha.. i think u dun even visit my blog.. lol

gdbye!

man utd.. sigh..

after liverpool won chelsea 2:0, i thought man utd will at least scrape a draw w arsenal.. visiting www.livescore.com, the scoreline was 1:0 to man utd at the 63min.. by chance tvuplayer has a life telecast.. woohoo.. thought it was nice to watch a winning man utd side.. but who wud haf expected tt man utd actually threw away the 1:0 lead to lose 2:1 in the end.. the worst thing is, the winner was scored by henry.. wtf.. not tt i am against him, jus tt he captalised on this to boost his own reputation again.. sux.. saviour of arsenal.. yucks.. btw, henry scored w a header.. it totally opposes my theory tt henry cant head.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks

after the one mth stay in china n watchin alot of soccer telecasts.. i haf to admit tt arsenal's style is excellent. it is kinda like the real madrid consisting of zidane makelele, before beckham n ronaldo went over.. to me, i find the tactic is v simple.. accurate passing n fast passing to open up space.. looks simple though but it requires a lot of technique.. i jus haf this feeling tt arsenal players run faster than their opponents all the time..

the two goals by arsenal are too simple.. cross, henry touches it.. den it became an assist or a goal.. crap..both goals came from crosses from the right.. it is unfair to say tt evra is a lousy player.. but he is tt gd to the extent to draw reports of man utd wanting to sell heinze.. in my opinon, heinze shud always start in place of evra.. his hard tackling is so attractive..evra's "soft" approach, resulted in the first cross.. (lying on the pitch, sticking his leg out tryin to poke the ball which is nowhere nearby) .. 2nd cross was oso defended by evra.. sigh.. nvm.. it dosent bother me too much though.. i dun support clubs or teams.. rather players.. do hope heinze, solskjaer wins the epl this season..

del piero is always above henry.. i dun care if u agree anot.. flame me all u wan n all u like..
del piero!
del piero!
del piero!

today is F day

friday, fuck it! (no vulgarities? u think i care?!)

wat a bullshit day! everythin is like pissin me off right now!

1. tt stupid hp of my dad. 3rd time goin down to causeway pt to send it for servicing. 1st time, the service is closed. 2nd time, too many ppl, line is too long. today went there early, only waited for awhile b4 i was served. gg, cant find network means need to update software.. come collect ur phone next tuesday.. so i haf to go down for the 4th time. bloody waste of time. go there come back will take like almost 1 hour. if i haf to wait for my turn tt day to collect tt damn phone. i will be more pissed off..

2. returned home, checked some letters and this is wat my mom tells me, ur phone bill 30+.. after u go ns, u pay for ur own phone bill.. v thoughtful. alr planned to stop giving me allowance after in enter ns, now add another clause - pay for ur own bills.. i can accept tt i pay for my own using the meagre amt of money earned. however, it is natural for me to feel unfair.. unhappy.. unsatisfied w ur decision. so stop remindin me this crap.

3. can u like lead by example.. fancy tellin me to clean the floor again tml.. although i am free.. doesnt mean i haf to do housework all the time. i jus cleaned the entire floor like a few days ago. as if u cleaned so much in the past. exploitation of me.. still can tell me this kind of things need careful planning like when to stop givin u money.. bla bla.. den ask u plan to call the service for computer? NO.. u wun do it.. why? cos u see no pt.. even if the comp cant work, u can access internet via the laptop.. if the internet cant work, qk will work it out since he needs it too.. if i wronged u, too bad. if things concerns u, den u plan properly n do it efficiently. if someone else can do it, u wun bother.. all human are like tt..

4. i only said md (of tmd) den u pt finger at me n scolds me.. it is jus a mild vulgarity. wats the big deal?! face it, vulgarities are flying everywhere.. even though it isnt polite, pointing ur finger in my face isnt polite too.. anyw, this part, i am wrong.. but since i am angry now.. i dun care..

5. singnet u suck! nice announcement u put on ur website.. sry for the inconvenience?! delay in services like gaming n video downloading.. didnt ur ads on the tv said tt ur connection is fast, imba, out of the world kind of exp.. ya.. out of the (internet) world.. laggy connection.. slow.. not even value for money.. collect so much money yet the service sux.. stop boasting abt ur products.. ur announcement has been there for days = laggy for days..

6. variety shows, stop broadcasting local variety shows (esp game shows, challenges, competitions) they suck! msot of the time, the hosts are yelling at the top of their voices.. the games u play are so similar all the time.. either u imitate other foreign shows or copy other local shows which imitates others.. in conclusion, most shows lacks originality.. stop the singing competitions pls.. it is jus a method to earn $ by askin ppl to sms.. den singtel (or is it another service) get a portion of the money.. the singers arent of top standards oso.. the singing style is always abt the same.. why cant u produce a singer w explosive voice.. i admit i cant do it.. but superstars muz be gd.. or else anyone can be superstar jus becos in a certain grp, he is the best.. SG is so small.. how many talented singers can u produce every yr..

talkin abt music.. pop.. chinese pop.. sigh.. too many singers of the same style.. tv commercials always say bla bla bla top sales.. asian diva.. asian superstar.. everyone is like a superstar.. now singers are successful becos they haf a special voice.. mayb? sun yanzi, ah du.. cos they sing in a weird style.. jj, his songs are nice, his voice is gd.. but i think he lacks tt explosiveness.. it sounds at tt same lvl all the time.. anyw, it doesnt concern me.. cos all the pop recently are nt my type..

i shall jus indulge in my kind of music.. the sad kind.. moderate spd.. nice female voice or strong male voice.. songs w surprises..

everything is corrupted in this world.. tt includes me..

by popular demand!

by popular demand again, i was threatened to blog or else.. lets start from yst, an outing w the all time fav lsd, taking "drugs" is definitely addictive. i haf to admit tt my intention of asking him out was pure "selfish" n i definitely knew he knew wat my intentions were. nonetheless, it was fun! :D

too bad dad, ur phone is still down! the nokia service centre line is too long, i am not gonna wait for my turn. i intended to go down today but since i woke up at 11, if i reached causeway pt, it will be like 11 going 12 n there will be alot of ppl again. no no no! i will go tml at 11 to be their first customer to be served.

back to the outing ----> tada! i bought a jigsaw frame (white wooden) and a bottle of jigsaw glue, it costs like almost $50. tt's kinda OMG! i was kinda worried how to NOT let my parents know abt it. haha. thinking of how to evade their qns when i returned home later. however, it is jus senseless worrying cos my dad din even notice it n my mom is jus too concern to look at the frame rather than asking me abt the price. haha. i escaped, evaded, eluded this time (thanx mrs tan kc, i used 3 Es..) anyw, we went to watch "one last dance" after tt. before the show, lsd suggested to play a game of air hockey.. i lost miserably. 6:2? ok. to regain some "Face" let me try to find someone to blame for the miserable game.. hahaha..

toblamelist:
1) my bag - i was carrying a bag so it adds to my weight n restricts my movement to prevent the puck from entering the "hole"
2) sorry but it has to be u, tt malay kid watching us play - are u bored or something, i hate spectators! in order to maintain my image like francis ng, my explosive attacks are undermined.
3) lsd himself - distracts me by swinging ur arm so hard tt ur pusher actually flew off from ur hand. dun try to deny it, u almost hit a female.. trying to catch attention of girls ah? not this way XD

ok it is wrong to push the blame to others so i shall stop right here.. since i grew up a little everyday, i am more responsible for my own actions. hahaha. lets get to the movie. i was quite skeptical abt the film. the entrance music for the film is so rhythmic n my kind of music. the film required some thinking to figure out the sequence of events. eventually i did. XD
this brings me to the pt tt recent films or plots have a lot of similarities, or it is jus chinese films. normally it is always mega tragedy when the protaganist always dies (francis ng committed suicide). the female lead may suffer from some kind of trauma (vivian hsu was gangraped), there is alot of murdering killing and the method is becoming more slick n cool (protaganist is an assassin).. there are more killings and less sex. mayb the other way round shud be better.. sincen killings end lives and sex creates lives.. mayb the world population is too huge a number. lol.. no flaming..

back home, talked to wileen.. there is some kinda progress.. trying to "date" her to give her the bday present. haha. faced alot of obstacles. she's so busy recently.. haha.. after awhile, the convo is like "dead" again cos i cant find anything interesting to talk abt. her replies were as usual challenging to continue the convo. haha.. well :D she's jus her XD.. tts a thing i got used to so long, n tts one of the main reasons y we cant last?! haha. she's learning driving. i was trying to get her to drive me arnd in future :D wat are frens for?! anyone out there, esp my frens, if u learn driving!!! pls pls pls drive me arnd.. i love u all :D

back to the film, tt nice theme song. i searched so long for it. lsd was searching for it too.. sadly, no source.. it is like finding a needle in the haystack. we duno the song title, the singer.. haha. kinda bad arent we. the lyrics too, we knew nothing abt it. haha. aimlessly finding hoping tt search engines are gd enuf. seriously google baidu sohu msn yahoo lycos and all the engines. buck up on ur engines..

this brings me to today. since i slpt so late.. i cant wake up.. so i din go to fix the phone again. today is kinda a bad day cos it rained. nasty things always happen to me when it rains. i knocked my little toe again. bleeding from tt big "cut" poor toe skin. when u do things, dun rush. i was running to my parents room to shut the windows n i knocked onto the legs of a chair. ouch! plastered toe again.. sigh.. i nv change, same toe same area i knocked after a lvls when i cleaned my room..

listening to songs now.. found this damn toot singer who links alot of songs tog. to form a new one. i heard the "ci ji 2007" it is so bullshit.. but u haf to admit tt tt guy is quite gd to link those songs so well. i downloaded the "ci ji 2006". haha.

my dad is so funny. tellin my mom he collected alot of bronze from the worksite and he could sell for some money. he said it is arnd 5 kg.. after carrying tt bag. i felt it wasnt tt heavy n put it on the weighin balance. it showed 2 kg. he said the balance is screwed up n searched for the 5 kg bag of rice. however, the rice was in the rice bucket. lol.. he comically searched everywhere to find something heavy.. taking shampoo, packet food lol!!! to end this, i found 1 bag of washing powder 3kg. after dropping it on the balance it showed 3kg. i told my dad the balance isnt screwed. he asked me to lift the 2 bags. the bag of bronze felt heavier than the washing powder. lol.. den he slowly put the bag of washin powder on the balance den it showed 1kg. lol. den i told him need to drop it.. den it showed 3kg.. so he asked me to drop the bag of bronze too.. den it showed 4kg. lol.. he was so proud tt he was right tt the bag of bronze is arnd 5kg. LOL.. so lame la.. one discovery today, the weighin balance only weighs correctly if u drop something on it.. nxt time.. jump on it when u wanna find out ur own weight/mass aiyah watever la.. gd bye physics.. haha

ok time for dinner.. XD
cya folks..

The Pink Rose

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updates??

life is so interesting. after someone urged me to piece the jigsaw, i started on it. mayb it was jus pure inspiration tt piecing the thing was like so smooth sailing. piece after piece, the pieces fit into place. after piecing all the easier parts, i am left w the different shades of blue.. tough one (at least for me).. went to play games but it turned out heaven wants me to complete it. the game disconnected.. while talkin lsd on msn n sharing songs w each other, i began the piecing again. slowly one by one, den it was finally done. by tt time, my dad alr woke up - 7 am.

after eating breakfast (2 plates of fried noodles.. kinda mad), i began my task of the day - floor mopping. following the instructions of my mom, granite floor use 1 type of washing liquid den wooden floor use another kind. after mopping once, den muz rinse twice w clean water. i took me arnd 2 hours.. i dun think i did a gd job but anyws my parents said the house became cleaner.. commenting tt i was doin gd. lol.

so wat did i learn:
1) fixing jigsaw needs really gd observation skills
2) the pic on the puzzle box isnt accurate all the time, esp the sides and the scale
3) there are 4 sides to each piece.. turn it round n round to try to fit it in place
4) dun assume tt 2 dots (the stars) close to each other are always on the same piece of jigsaw
5) framing the jigsaw up needs a lot of money.. lol

6) dun add too much washing liquid into the water, cos u dun need so much
7) the more water the merrier, makes cleaning faster
8) mopping is so tiring, no wonder no one in the house likes to do tt
9) mopping the floor will only produce gd results if u use more energy when mopping
10) i can mop floor n piece jigsaws..

cya folks

Completed At Last!

someone ya ya papaya alr XD.. muahahahahahahahahahaha

aquarius completed!!!

the first task on my todolist is finally completed. having no desire to slp, i completed the 500 piece puzzle. although it is ez for some, to me, it is quite an uphill task since my concentration span is so short and i am not a v patient person XD. haha. big hug to qk!

first i muz thank the following ppl.
top of the to thank list is:
1) qk - for taking time & effort to complete the puzzle
2)lsd aka shaeng aka candy - mic-ing w me on msn while i piece the final stretch of the puzzle
3)weeloon's fren - urgin me to piece the puzzle
4) dad & mom - for keeping quiet while i piece the puzzle.. (since they are slpin lol)
last but not least.. the most impt person - makin me wanna piece a puzzle

hahahaha.. time for the framing of the puzzle.. den the giveaway.. den the happybday..
tts all folks.. photos of the puzzle might come.. however, i am so noob w all these stuff so u all can wait happily for the pics of the "aquarius"

cya folks!

a mistake? maybe not :D

sigh having a cousin like webster is quite a headache. sometimes u duno if u wanna laugh or cry.
promising him to bring him over to my house for the wkend was jus a nice attempt to help him feel less bored at home. being stuck at home alone for the wkend is boring w the hw n assessements. here goes the nice story:

it all began when i visited my aunt to get a phone (my uncle's) so tt i wouldnt be having the "0 connectivity" tag.. this webster was supposed to be slping.. den he woke up to open the door. this gave him the chance to slp later than usual. asking me to play cards w him n as usual he was trashed by me. my aunt asked him to slp but this "sore loser" wanna play. so i promised him to let him stay the wkend so he can play games on my laptop.

fri nite. percussion gathering. i feel so dumb thinking tt the other percs of my batch were goin too. NAH. wrongly informed by one senior XD ty v much.. so it is like a gathering of 5 seniors and me :D since i haf to bring webster to my home, i fetched him from my aunt n brought him to the gathering too.. since it is jus eating a dinner. he could jus sit there n diam diam.. haha.. meeting time at 7:30. left the house at 6. waited for the damn 171 for 30 minutes. woohoo.. nice rainy evening ah. poor service costs alot.. told webster to wait at the busstop oppo coro centre, wanting him to hop on the 171 when it arrives. once i saw him, i signaled for him to board, he jus stood there smiling at me. so i rushed to alight. den the door closed n there wasnt any pressing bells nearby. gg. i had to alight 1 stop later. ran all the way back in the rain, scared tt he might left n i couldnt find him.. so when i finally arrived at suntec it was like 8:30 w all the seniors waiting for me n webster XD.. nice rain nice 171 nice webster!

as usual i slpt late. like 9 am.. i felt something shaking my finger. opened my eyes n saw webster askin me to log onto maplestory for him to play. the gd thing is he did his assignments b4hand. not bad, damn enthu while doin work since there is gonna b some exciting rewards for him. he played the com for quite a long time. however, i dont wanna be labelled as bad influence by his sister. sorry webbie.. no com for u liao!!! imagine how terrible he felt when i took the com away from him. poor kid.

i shall go watch tv :D cya everyone!

expectations XS

returning from a 1 mth stay really screws a lot of things up. it was supposed to be a happy return, maybe tt's wat i expected it to be. reaching home with a spoilt computer, a laptop which cant log onto the internet and a nokia phone of my dad which cant find the network. with these 3 combined, i am sort of deprived of all kinds of entertainment.

all these troubles were the work of my dear parents. thanx! with the com gone, this means bye bye to my duno how many seasons saved game, plus the photos, songs and much more. at least i still have some photo backups in the laptop. i am so glad tt i managed my files before i left for the 1 mth trip XD.
next, the internet. seriously i dont know how my mom can use the com until it crashes (the com fan isnt functioning now), when her com is dead, she jumps to use my laptop, there she goes again, the laptop cant get onto internet. lol. maybe technology doesnt like her. whatever she uses cant load or jus crashes. fortunately this internet thing is solved on the day i returned. now i am connected XD.
the phone issue is the best! since my dad's phone is "dead" w/o network, he jus simply uses mine! woohoo! then what do i use? the first day really sux, with the dead internet & phone, i cant contact anyone esp when there is a gathering the next day! at least for now, i am using my uncle's retired phone. well 2 problems of mine have been solved. i shud be happy though.

nokia phone! i have to fix u! went to causeway pt nokia care service while meeting up w weeloon. thanx nokia! the service is off tt day.. only on tt day.. so nice of them XD.. i didnt go down again since it is like raining everyday. i shall wait for a fine sunny day to fix the troublesome thing.

i thought my mom was so thoughtful when she replied to my plans for the wk. monday, class gathering, tuesday kbox, wed, thu, fri all should be gathering and stuff. she said i can like play for 1 wk since most male frens are goin army alr. need some gathering. woohooo fun for 1 wk!

it is like jus 3 days then she started nagging tt i am not planning my time properly. everyday keep playing, slp so late, wake up late too. when i wake up early, she nags tt i dun do productive things. saying i am really so free and nothing to do to the extent to piece a jigsaw puzzle. waking up late means a "black face" and a "nasty" tone waiting for me.

i swear tt i will never talk to my mom abt my plans and thoughts abt my future. the more i tell her, the more nasty things she can say to "get back" to me. the most terrible thing is i have to act normal even though i feel quite hurt by some of her comments. sigh. i keep learning this lesson, the more u talk, the more u suffer.

i really feel like locking myself up in my room, isolate myself from this mom claiming she is so nice and thoughtful. i dont deny sometimes she is, but now she isnt.

i think i have really grown up, this bday is the most unusual bday ever. first time in 12 yrs to do it back in china again. a bday w/o alot of gifts. haha. (i am dropping hints to frens alr ah... hahaha lol) the money i received for my bday, most are given away to my relatives who took care of me in the 1 mth stay. they do deserve the money, and i dont need so much. haha. i am always nt v concerned w alotof money. if there is enough to survive, i think i am fine w it.

bringing my cousin over later. however, there is perc dinner. mayb i shud jus bring him there too? i dont know.. brain has to process too many things. XD
i shall write again nxt time..