a wk has gone.. i am still goin strong.. getting to know ppl from other units, it jus widen my horizons.. i understood one simple concept, it is not the vocation or training sch is fk up, it is jus the person himself who sux.. those who always want to procastinate.. those who jus wan to get allowance for doin nth.. those who are irresponsible and dont even complete their required tasks.. those are the suckers who disgrace the entire human race..
as expected i received some scolding, but unfortunately for things i din even expect.. i thought my packing was gd (effective) but it wasnt appealing appearance wise hence being labelled FK UP, worst packer.. lol.. someone has to voice out disappearance of equipment due to negligence of ppl, getting it back earlier (along the way back is definitely better than goin back to camp den reporting loss) nvm, i expected to get fk oso even though i wasnt at fault..
had been quite a joker for the wk, always doin the presentations and coming out w classic lines in the course.. think on the bright side, at least i entertained some ppl along the way in the boring course so far..
guardsmen are to be respected bcos of their unity which is their ultimate strength.. physically wise they are strong, mentality strong too.. lastly is tt willingness to absorb the "shit" which comes along the way since someone has to clear it.. now i really quite despise my unit more, even though the specs there get quite an amt of "shit", the comd mostly arent really tt "up" to face them positively.. i am somewhere there too.. somehow have to improve too..
i'm happy i made some new frens.. jus like wat dennis said, u get real buddies from this course.. hopefully i will "enjoy" more
Friday, May 30, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
yawn.. a new challenge
today is sat.. tmr is sun.. den it is mon! the start of a new challenge.. a challenge i really wont want to have.. it is futile to curse n swear why i got it (actually i noe, i am responsible n handle my duties w care)and i have to get ready for the intense "shit" tt is coming up for the next 6 wks.. i foresee i can make a few new buddies cos u only make real frens when u go thru "shit" tog..
i guess my life so far is still quite peaceful.. i hope another storm wont come so soon cos i am not really in the mood to turn into a serious person yet. i still want to enjoy a bit more..
it's been a long time we had a sec class gathering.. cos i never "initiate" so it never happened? haha i am not so "great" to tt extent.. bored.. i shall stop
i guess my life so far is still quite peaceful.. i hope another storm wont come so soon cos i am not really in the mood to turn into a serious person yet. i still want to enjoy a bit more..
it's been a long time we had a sec class gathering.. cos i never "initiate" so it never happened? haha i am not so "great" to tt extent.. bored.. i shall stop
Friday, May 16, 2008
start on a high note.. end on a v v low..
the start of a pleasant day ending in a miserable manner is way to common for me nowadays. planning can be done really well but unexpected things jus pops out randomly to surprise u and destroy the mood.
taking a half day off was well paid off w a simple lunch w great pals u've never seen so long. yushan esp, i guess i do like her presence alot. haha. she's the first girl i talk to in j1 during intro in class.
i thought i made a wise decision not to go sing w cy n head straight back to camp. i made it jus in time, the coy changed the timing of the run n thanks no one really informed me. i always thought it was 1630hrs but the fall in timing was 1515hrs. i had a mere 15 min to prepare.
the run wasnt up to standard thanks to the lunch. haha. i felt like vomitting. in the end i was one of the last few in the coy to reach the finishing line. at least i was within the 30 minute passing time. i said gdbye to the remedial training n said hi to vomitting in the toilet. haha.
my plans for a night movie was abruptly cancelled due to i oso duno wat (tiredness of the participants). nvm. i am tired too, but the prospect of meetin frens n enriching my social life is really medicinal - possessing great healing and recovery abilities.
i was disappointed w it though, i can i say i desperately wanted to spend time w my frens, or girls.. haha.. (horny, bian tai, sicko, pervert) i am a nice person afterall.
mom spoils it all by initiating the discussion abt uni again. frustrating to the core. frankly speaking i am shag out w the 5km run n tt 8k route march the day b4. why the fk in this world does my mom wants to know every fk thing i do. wat fkin pleasure does she derive from knowing. she wants to know who i go out w. how many ppl goin for the gathering. where. fk all these irrelevant info. she isnt the one attending the gathering. y the fk she wanna know everythin. FKING irritating.
pardon all the fk. i jus got into the really annoyed mood. a few F and Ks is jus a weak attempt to demonstrate how irritated i am w this uncomfortable situation. i really want my stay at home back from camp peaceful, quiet and enjoyable. my mom muz irritate me to end up both of us feeling really bad.
her perspective is always she talks to me nicely n i rejects her and shoo her away. she talks 2 me becos she cares for me, so becos of this "care" i have to "suffer" and disrupt my relaxation.
if i am really tt bastardly selfish, i would jus say she is the selfish one. i can always see her tryin to feel secure knowing how i plan my future so tt she did her job as a mom to "supervise" the son's path in life. she did her fair share (although not really practical - for show only)
however, i am not tt idiotic n i feel guilty for being nasty to her.. but who really can sympathize w me?
i always say i need a gf. actually i dun need a gf. i jus need a person i can talk to, who is willing to listen to my rambling. but who will listen to all these "senseless complains which will arrive at no conclusions"? the only person who is silly enuf to hear all these happily will be someone in love, otherwise, one will jus find me a nuisance (machine gun etc).
the gf is a person who will always be there to care for u. sympathise w u even though sometimes u might be wrong. blindlessly support u and cheer u up in any manner. someone who sacrifices for u willingly w/o wanting any return except the smile u display or ur laughter.
some ppl turn to religion (god) for the support, i think i can survive on my own - creating a similar support by myself (jus by imagination). it is harder though, someday i will master the act of self deception. i will no longer feel blue. i will be ORANGE for the entire day. GET HIGH!
taking a half day off was well paid off w a simple lunch w great pals u've never seen so long. yushan esp, i guess i do like her presence alot. haha. she's the first girl i talk to in j1 during intro in class.
i thought i made a wise decision not to go sing w cy n head straight back to camp. i made it jus in time, the coy changed the timing of the run n thanks no one really informed me. i always thought it was 1630hrs but the fall in timing was 1515hrs. i had a mere 15 min to prepare.
the run wasnt up to standard thanks to the lunch. haha. i felt like vomitting. in the end i was one of the last few in the coy to reach the finishing line. at least i was within the 30 minute passing time. i said gdbye to the remedial training n said hi to vomitting in the toilet. haha.
my plans for a night movie was abruptly cancelled due to i oso duno wat (tiredness of the participants). nvm. i am tired too, but the prospect of meetin frens n enriching my social life is really medicinal - possessing great healing and recovery abilities.
i was disappointed w it though, i can i say i desperately wanted to spend time w my frens, or girls.. haha.. (horny, bian tai, sicko, pervert) i am a nice person afterall.
mom spoils it all by initiating the discussion abt uni again. frustrating to the core. frankly speaking i am shag out w the 5km run n tt 8k route march the day b4. why the fk in this world does my mom wants to know every fk thing i do. wat fkin pleasure does she derive from knowing. she wants to know who i go out w. how many ppl goin for the gathering. where. fk all these irrelevant info. she isnt the one attending the gathering. y the fk she wanna know everythin. FKING irritating.
pardon all the fk. i jus got into the really annoyed mood. a few F and Ks is jus a weak attempt to demonstrate how irritated i am w this uncomfortable situation. i really want my stay at home back from camp peaceful, quiet and enjoyable. my mom muz irritate me to end up both of us feeling really bad.
her perspective is always she talks to me nicely n i rejects her and shoo her away. she talks 2 me becos she cares for me, so becos of this "care" i have to "suffer" and disrupt my relaxation.
if i am really tt bastardly selfish, i would jus say she is the selfish one. i can always see her tryin to feel secure knowing how i plan my future so tt she did her job as a mom to "supervise" the son's path in life. she did her fair share (although not really practical - for show only)
however, i am not tt idiotic n i feel guilty for being nasty to her.. but who really can sympathize w me?
i always say i need a gf. actually i dun need a gf. i jus need a person i can talk to, who is willing to listen to my rambling. but who will listen to all these "senseless complains which will arrive at no conclusions"? the only person who is silly enuf to hear all these happily will be someone in love, otherwise, one will jus find me a nuisance (machine gun etc).
the gf is a person who will always be there to care for u. sympathise w u even though sometimes u might be wrong. blindlessly support u and cheer u up in any manner. someone who sacrifices for u willingly w/o wanting any return except the smile u display or ur laughter.
some ppl turn to religion (god) for the support, i think i can survive on my own - creating a similar support by myself (jus by imagination). it is harder though, someday i will master the act of self deception. i will no longer feel blue. i will be ORANGE for the entire day. GET HIGH!
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