i lvl up!!

i think i lvled up.. matured abit..
but i guess i will dlvl once i get back to uni n meet my frens..

bgr isnt a prob to me anymore.. yea i can live w/o one.. r/s are complicated.. those w hot dates do give them up soon

:D

random comment: rajesh u are way too fast!!

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i feel so inferior

when things surfaced...

yea quarreling at home again. i wonder how i can really concentrate on studying.
i've read the notes etc, but i dont seem to grasp the concept. i am not 100% sure of myself understanding but i am definitely sure my parents are helping me accumulate stress unnecessarily.

grandma, aunt, dad and money. quarrels started by my mom always seem to revolve around these topics. it used to be 1 or 2 out of these options. it is still manageable. when all 4 are involved, it's quite a hassle.

mother and daughter in law conflicts.
protection of own interests
indifferent attitude towards problems
filial piety
who contributed more money

all these are giving me problems.
yea for fk i waste time writing here.. i should be reading notes, viewing powerpoints presentations. doin tutorials. it will be a good form of distraction.

i cant totally say my mom is unreasonable, causing all the problems and the noise.
i cant say my dad is totally right, remaining silent is a form of evasion.
i cant agree that my grandma is not wrong, for she is fking insistent n heed no advice.. fk her.. forget abt the filial piety shit.. sometimes she is too much..

EVERYONE should just fk off..
sigh.. i am going off track again..

lets get back to angular momentum..
there is still gravitation waiting..

another day gone..

i had a run last night and met something which annoyed me. sometimes u may wonder why accidents tend to occur at night? (hope it is true, i am sayin this jus to support my point) i was on the way back from my night run, acrossing the road slowly admiring the flashing green man. poor green little man, has to wake up every few minutes. how does he even get any rest?! tts besides the point, this car was turning as i was acrossing the traffic, he had no intention to slow down, neither do i have the intention to spd up. he almost knocked me when the traffic light didnt even indicate turning is allowed.

i can make two wonderful conclusions on tt driver who happen to be of a darker skin color. (i am not being racist here, it is part of the description! i have to disclaim first for i dont w to get into trouble w the law).
1. he is blind - since he cant see the green man blinking and no turning sign from the traffic light. i was wearing a blue singlet w reflective materials at the side lining.
2. the damn driver horned at me. KNNCCB. it was his fault for reckless driving. he stared at me and i glared at him w the WTF look, while i still walked slowly across the road.

if u cant drive properly dont act tough. one reason i nv started learning driving, i dont want to get anyone hurt.

today i had maths tuition. did some qns w shaun. i realised after doin so much phy my mode of operation has become simplifying the answer required into a single equation and doing substitution. lol. it is kinda funny and i cant think like how i did when i was in sec 4. hahaha. mayb tts a sign of maturing :D
hopefully this can go on, and no fking test can stop me! lol..

lalalala.. i wanna go breathe some fresh air again!!

the mid terms ended..

well it's a good reality check and an opportunity to understand urself better.
this chapter of my pathetic life showed me how fragile i am mentally. i am one who cant face setbacks. wtf. the maths test totally crushed me, dampened my confidence and build up enormous amt of pressure for me to do well. the test tells me how i will be summarised in one word: Fucked

there are lessons learnt from the midterms. since i am graded by jus only 1-2 tests. i muz act like an opportunist. it doesnt really matter if i can solve those problems everyday, if i Fk the test, i will be Fk, no matter how Fking gd i am (if i were one in the 1st place). it is stupid of me to start the day at 6 ante meridien and doin a maths test at 8.30 post meridien without proper rest. this is a FKing gd example of a FKing bad time management. thanks to lack of focus and panicking at the most inappropriate times, i made tonnes of careless mistakes etc. THANKS

for the EG test, well i am blind to miss out on a part of the question. it's really fuckstrating, since it is like dribbling the ball past 3 defenders and round the gk and STOP - refusing to do the simple tap in. WTF

Phy test - the only test i am satisfied w myself. even though there are qns i couldnt do, or having insufficient amt of time to attempt, i managed to solve those i could do. i think so. at least i dont expect much from this test since my phy has always been Fk. lol. i am happy w my performance.

THE F WORD is the most versatile word in the dictionary. lets EMBRACE IT.. lets all go FUCK!