cheer up

someone has to cheer up.. dont know if u are reading this, yeah, dont get all so upset over ur mom, even though i dont know what happened.. u should be like me right hahaha, always losing patience w my mom.

i will be there for you.

oops i did it again..

i guess i've to break my promise again.. hahaha
some white lies are definitely better..

im strong! haha

wake up

no one is gonna pity u cos u are sick..
qk u idiot.. wake up and do ur work.. the grp isnt gonna reply..

why no one offers help..

sigh.. no one offers me aid, must one always approach others for help? it's their assignment too..

it's my problem too.. i cant get over the obstacle.. back to thinking..

sigh..

i dont want history to repeat..
someone was sad for years becos of me..
shouldnt get another one into trouble again..

someone has to be on the losing end, i rather it be me..

duu duuu duuuu

duu duuu duuuu...

她快乐不表示你快乐

狠心一点

duu duuu duuuu...

it's hard

it's kinda hard to view her as GUX
well 12m.. i can do much better, it's only m1..

=|

:)

can you feel my world..

你只喜欢我微笑
你决定我的需要
我要怎么说才好
我不是为你制造
关心像是泥藻 拉住我往下掉
爱是漂亮口号 透过你的视角
你把我的喜好随便删掉
变成你要的调调
你为我好 我知道 我都知道
我的烦恼 我的骄傲 你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑
不能满足于拥抱
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
Can you take my hand
真诚你会感觉到
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好 你才觉得我重要
你只要我有礼貌
其他假装看不到
我要怎么说才好
当我的情绪低潮
关心像是泥藻 拉住我往下掉
爱是漂亮口号 透过你的视角
你把我的喜好随便删掉
变成你要的调调
你为我好 我知道 我都知道
我的烦恼 我的骄傲 你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑
Rap：日日夜夜我闭着双眼祈祷
为什么只有我的音乐能够让我依靠
我知道我的世界已经变得越来越小
跑不掉 跑不了 怎么面带着微笑
怎么面对着你才好 怎么眼泪都在掉
怎么嘴嘟着好严肃 只要不是哭着就好
什么旋律在我脑袋一直转 一直绕
意志力一直撑着我再一次祷告 帮助我
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
Can you take my hand
真诚你会感觉到
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好 你才觉得我重要
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
Can you take my hand
真诚你会感觉到
Can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好 你才觉得我重要

troubles.

every family has their own problems.

all these problems are lame.

whats the best way to solve problems? sleep!

lets make a pill call "sense of urgency"

when under pressure, one tends to do better.
we all need this urgency pill to temporarily boost our mental and physical capacities so as to achieve.

i thought of quite alot of things during this exam period.. instead of thinking of the modules.. haha..

:D

surprises

what a wkend.
1 entire week spent on the project. i like the feeling of doing work seriously. however, its really hard to start being serious. laid-back attitude.. its no good..

went to facebook n got a really pleasant surprise.
she's attached. wow.
on hindsight, what i said to her on msn was really inappropriate, however, i guess i shudnt be blamed, since i dont know abt it.. haha.. joking around jus irritates people.. im learning at home.. from people at home.. yea, it isnt good an example to follow..

feeling blank again.. yea.. shes attached..
it was over a long time ago :) all the best!

normal days

"unproductive day"
- Brother Bear

i'm sure u people wanna know about brother bear.
he is a good friend of brown paper bear, pooh bear, tigger, sloth, tomato, apple and tortoise.

starting ur blog entry in this manner will definitely attract afew oO on the readers face.. mission accomplished!

someone said i am fierce (today).. i shall change.. for the greater good and for you. honoured?

engine is dying before it has started.. omg.. i am doomed! (repetition will lose its effect someday!)

yea failed it..

lets say i jus gave up 20% of the grade. so generous of me.
it makes me wonder if i can really do well for my papers.
i practised and thought i knew the things. the world is cruel. if u missed ur chance, u fail to make ur mark.

maybe i just cant perform at a bigger stage. once in a while, accidents do happen, but when they keep happening, i guess it is just me.

u are not good enough when u are not.
face it.
let me hope for a better future.

dreams..

i am having quite alot of dreams.. this is a really weird one on Monday..

setting: i assume it should be in taiwan. (deductions from bits and pieces in the dream)
bought roadside food for 2, cost: $100+, chinese speaking environment.. a taiwan band was there too

story begins with (not once upon a time)..
i was walking with a girl (girl of my dreams.. i still can vividly remember the figure, the hair, the skin tone, the sweet voice.. ok back to the story) to her apartment. she seems to live in a shady apartment w alot of girls dressed only in bra&panties.. (so is she a pro?)

i waited for her to get changed & we went to the streets again. we had food at the roadside stall, walking slowly and munching the food, a nice normal date.. when she told me "RUN!" and she sprinted off. behind were 4-5 men with knives and parang chasing after her.. its like the typical HK movie when the gangsters chased after their target. i clearly remebered i was terrified, trying to hide in the backdrop of the street, hoping no one finds and hacks me.. after a few minutes, everyone was running in an opposite direction, then my date came back with a gang of people (including a Taiwan singer).. that was when i woke up.. i tried really hard to fall aslp again to revisit the dream.. hoping to solve the mysteries surrounding my date..

i guess the dream was modelled around my ideal gf.. but why is her background so complicated? there must be some hidden meaning to it..

today i had another dream, this time it was a crappy one w lots of people.. i dont remember any pretty gf in this dream, therefore, it wasnt worth the storage space in my brain.. yea.. a perfect excuse for forgetting the details of the dream.. will i dream more in the next few days?

hope everyone is doing fine.. it is irrelevant to the topic dreams..
bye bye

lies.. pretence.. facade..

i m tired..

whats the point of protecting others interests at the expense of ur close ones..
or is it protecting ur own damn interests (ur belief)..
if this is what they are preaching.. why should i even care abt how they think..
misunderstanding always occur when u view others w tainted glass...
one is stubbornly living in denial.. refuse to accept that he is wrong
the other is persistent, what she thinks must be done has to be done, worse of all, quickly, regardless of timing..

sigh..
when will they wake up?

how can i neglect this blog!!!?!!!

yes i can!
y not? i own it!

thats besides the point.. lets see.. whats there to update my loyal fans? if i have any..

i am a slacker.. i know it and i know it..

no more hows?! what to do?! CAP?! sometimes the things happening arnd u really set u thinking..

i forgot to wish her happy bday! lol i am a tart. this just means the relationship has gone platonic.. thats good..

new yr wishes:
1) peace in the house
2) a less emo mom
3) a more sensitive dad
4) finding someone who can live w my tarts :D it wont happen since i nv begin finding. F(t) = 0 when t = 0

meet more friends before chinese new year so that it feels good that i met them..

happy new year to everyone in advance!

qk = great
qk is assigned to great..