entry deleted.. i am fine :D

lalalala..

i am fine i guess..

tts life.. no more pink..

the blue era

my new mission

help the gal to get gd grades for O lvls..

jessica..
jus tt i duno if she wants my help..
i love doin things my way..

dang!

duno wat to blog abt too.. too bz to prepare stuff to help her alr..
too little time..
too much stuff to prepare..

at least i guess for SS.. i am done..

another JOB.. connections count

my aunt arranged tuition for me! woohoo.. i got a new job! for now.. tutoring a pri 5 kid.. i had one session w him alr.. well.. it is the typical adorable pri 5 boy innocent to only a small extent.. lol.. boys.. wat do u expect?!

teaching him english is quite fun.. tellin him things to rmb.. memorize.. explaining some grammar.. doin compre cloze w him.. askin him to spell certain words.. showin him exam technique..

today at 2.. i am gonna teach him maths.. it will be simpler than english i guess.. exams are more or less abt examination technique, hope he learns somethin from me today.. or else i feel bad gettin money from him..

decent pay.. my aunt is tryin to get me one more student.. this means my pay might even double.. lol.. anyw.. now i can repay my OICs.. muahaha.. penguin since u wont visit this site.. u wont noe i am gonna return u ur OICs.. lol.. muahahaha...

this is trickery to the max. :D i love myself..

completed the rose set drops in maple.. wileen gets them as i've promised myself.. dang! tt jigsaw is still w me.. when will she arrange to meet w me? haha :D i'll wait.. i guess i haf to voice it out first again.. lalala..

i realise MS can be a FAMILY game.. lol.. no wonder tt party always go offline tog.. the lightning wizard is mom.. the assassin is the daughter n the ranger is the dad.. LOL.. if tt's the case.. the mom niao the daughter last time for sayin "imissu" to imissu.. LOL.. wat a funny family :D.. games are gettin more interesting..

$$ is more impt.. i'll get goin... haha.. i cant be so irresponsible.. i've alr pocketed $250.. lol

YET another day SPENT

today - 20 feb 07
isnt is kinda special.. 20/02 den +5 = 2007.. (i am really bored!!!!)

supposed there is some "outing" planned later.. haha.. it blew! XD
it's kinda disappointin - finally i can haf some gathering (the company doesnt matter), tt glimmer of hope to escape from boredom! woohooo!!! however, it wont affect me much too.. haha.. it's jus a little disappointed feelin.. haha.. i am so used to this feelin..

well this morning wasnt tt bad too.. found a Stamina Saver of Love in Rappelz from the V Day present drop. Fast exp n jpoints!!! Went to dungeon party w my guild.. thank god i din die today! instead i lvl up.. a lvl 45 sexy imissu2 strider.. The sad thing was i din get any gd drops at all.. HELL!! how did aion get the +1 dark strike?!!? lol.. :D it's jus a game!

playin the entire morning means little webster had to sit beside me n watch.. (WOOHOO yien is online now!!!) i gonna let him play the com at 2.. now's 1:40.. so technically i only haf 20 minutes to talk to yien.. awww~~

lol.. she wont talk much too i guess.. haha.. "Beautiful You"..

yawn.. someone is really cmi.. tt's all i can think of n say now..

another day spent..

1st day of CNY..
1st day!! 1st day!!!

i really feel tt i haf no life.. these few days.. things i wanna blog revolve arnd my cousin.. hello?! y muz it be my cousin?! he doesnt deserve such attention!! i am d star here!! talk abt cousin = no life.. ok.. new definition!

he is showing attitude everyday.. if not everytime someone asked him to stop playin the computer or forbid him from playin it. NOW, he is forced to do assessment bks.. muahaha.. imagine how pissed off he is.. v really v pissed off.. punchin the assessment (according to my dad).. my dad dragged him to do assessment bks.. i am nt gonna be the EVIL one..

my aunt is quite contradicting too.. she asked me to dun let him play alot.. but yst.. when i forbade him to play.. she told me let him play cos he was quite pitiful.. omg.. i really duno how to settle this little kid.. XD.. dang!

i shall jus heck care i guess for now.. i've alr spoilt 2 days of my holidays feelin mouldy thanx to my cousin showin me his "pretty" face.. i am torturing myself man.. y make life so miserable for qk? right qk?..

operation lvl up.. i'm sure it isnt NO LIFE.. haha

eve of cny..

wat a day?! aimless senseless useless..

the entire day was full of frustration, annoyance and irritants..

morning - i had to forgo the chance to go out shoppin cos i have a babysitting job. marking of my cousin's paper.. n to think of it.. he was jus wasting my time.. science paper.. it's ok if he din noe how to do, but he shud make v intelligent guesses.. here's one qn:

there is a light source, an object and a 10 cm wall
here are the positions of the things..

A....B....C....D....E...wall

he chose this option as the possible correct ans:
when the object is placed at A and the light source at C, u see a shadow of 10 cm on the wall.. i really wondered how in the world a shadow will form on the wall when the object isnt in between the wall n the light source.. XD..

looking back to wat he did the night before, his maths paper.. he repeated all his mistakes (careless ones) in the same paper.. so for 3 wks.. all the mistakes are the same.. in every paper, there will be 1 or 2 "see qn wrongly", 1 or 2 multiplication errors, he left out qns blank insisting tt he din noe how to do.. when i looked at it.. it was the qn i taught him a wk ago.. SAME style somemore.. this showed tt he din even listen to wat i say in the past.. so it is really a waste of time.. my wkends..

in the afternoon my dear cousin as usual gave me tt look cos i din allowed him to play.. i lectured him again.. tiring..

den my aunt n uncle came for reunion dinner.. they took the laptop (internet) for chinese new year celebrations (china cctv1).. from 8 to 12+, the internet was theirs.. after tt my mom used it to skype w relatives back in china all the way till 2:30+.. at 1:20, she told me awhile more.. n awhile more = 1 hour plus.. excellent..

sigh.. when i finally can talk to ppl, all went off to slp.. i expected tt too.. i am sorry.. XD
den my mom was so nice to tell me this after she's done w her talking..

"u dun wan to slp?" "i think ur frens all slpin liao"
v nice of her.. tellin me things i knew like so long ago.. when she was using the com.. i was tryin to be nice to keep quiet cos it was a rare opportunity for my mom to talk to her sisters n my grandma over the internet.. hey mom, u dun haf to purposely come n agitate me.. complained abit to her.. being sarcastic on the "awhile more"..

she oso knew i had a v pissed off day.. i cant do wat i want to do.. always had to give in to others.. n as usual.. i din have a gd appetite during dinner.. reunion dinner is a waste of bloody time.. skipping CNY shud be promoted.. XD

n my cousin.. is still awake now.. before my aunt left.. she asked him to slp.. tts like 1pm.. he insisted on sitting on the bed n now in front of the tv.. he has got an attitude.. he's kinda like me.. XD..

let's hope the next few days will be better.. gd luck val too..

qk feels apologetic to let someone wait.. (it feels kinda weird though) now i haf a new chatting mate.. XD

vday a job done

i have been so busy for the past few days.. playing games.. obtaining information.. planning.. running arnd.. finally it is over.. my life will be back to normal (fingers crossed).. i hope.. i guess.. i wish..

it is an absurd thing to do.. tt job.. role playing bf? since i promised i will help.. i will complete the task even w complaints.. anyw.. today is v day.. i shall only blog abt happy stuff.. the rest belongs to me alone..

the only happy thing abt the entire event.. to see someone smile.. tts one of the reasons why i accepted the job in the first place.. well.. my objective has been achieved.. i should be v v v happy :D

the stunned look on someone's face.. the unbelievable expression.. the self-giggling..

when a surprise pops out when one expects it the least.. it is a really pleasant thing.. :D

sadly, i am deprived of it.. nah.. i got a surprise when i reached home.. a surprise i dont think i want.. anyw, it's there.. face it..

happy v day..

魔幻季节

rappelz

games are addictive.. haha.. for me, maplestory is addictive becos of the item drops.. (definitely not the lvl up system. lol) anyw, my cleric was a screwed up one.. so lsd dun unscrew it.. imissu is supposed to be lidat.. shaven head n tonnes of magic armour.. haha.. actually the most impt things abt online games is the chance to make frens.. however, maplesea is quite limited to the kind of frens u can meet. with the fav phrase "cc".. how do u even interact? nvm.. tt's not the point..

rappelz.. i am playin this game now.. it has excellent graphics.. but it is giving my laptop a huge workload w the graphics card crashing for a few times. haha.. anyw i still love cabal graphics.. the best so far! haha.. rappelz.. actually it can get v boring.. jus tt i got to join a guild w interesting ppl.. this game is US based.. so it is a diff feeling when u play w ppl overseas.. they are so helpful.. they dun mind helping u even if it is troublesome for them.. nice ppl.. i guess this is why it makes tt game so fun.. i am oso keen to wear new armour.. lol.. equips.. qk never changes.. always want to get new items.. lol

now. the internet.. singnet.. wats wrong w u? or is it my modem.. these few days from afternoon onwards.. the "link" light on the modem keeps flashing.. it shud be a SOLID light.. flashing = no internet connection.. haha.. this is so frustrating.. but after two days of this.. i was enlightened.. modem doesnt wanna me to use the internet for so long.. haha.. less com.. more exercise.. more tv!

i guess i shud let my mom use the internet for awhile.. she din use it for quite sometime.. haha.. when she wanted to use it this morning.. it is still down.. haha.. XD

who's filial? qk of cos!

wat a wkend..

at the request of my aunt, my cousin came over for the wkend so i could supervise his studying and help him w his hw/assignment. His CA1 is approaching (26 feb) and my aunt n uncle are too busy w their work to keep an eye on him. this task is given to the unemployed. haha

it would be definitely better for webster to spend time w me for the wkend, rather than alone at home. at least someone will look after his needs e.g food, emotional needs, and last of all the computer. XD it sux to be alone esp at a young age. i've gone thru tt. he is goin thru tt now. gd luck.

he came over on fri evening.. watched him did his set of english paper from some sch.. nyps past yr papers i guess.. he made a lot of careless mistakes.. get easy grammar qn wrong.. his vocab isnt enuf for tt of a pri 5.. i jus haf this impression tt he knows too little.. XD if i din rmb it wrongly.. it took me 2 hours plus to go thru the paper w him.. my playtime?! sigh..
after tt, let him played abit of maplestory.. actually his aim to come my house is jus to play maplestory.. sigh.. everyday thinking of maplestory n the accs i haf..

he was asked to slp.. while i talked on msn.. he keep staring at me n din wanna shut his eyes.. typical boy.. wont slp until he did wat he intended to do - play the com b4 slping. nice cousin?! i let him played for 45min.. it's like 2am when he reluctantly went to bed again. this time, he shut his eyes.. (mission accomplished)

the next day, he was on the com when i woke up.. i slpt late.. definitely woke up later than him. my precious slping time! no choice.. had to supervise him. asking him to start work, maths paper from another sch.. i played on the com.. marking his maths is more frustrating than english. i can understand language is hard for him but it cant be for maths.. his careless mistakes are simply wonderful. given (a+b)/c = d, and a,c,d are known.. he said he duno how to find b.. XD.. saw his working.. (a+b)/c -c = d-c.. a +b = d-c.. i guess he wasnt concentrating on doin his work.. if he really duno this.. i am worried for him..

following which.. science paper.. it was ok.. there were alot of qns in the paper tt he never learnt b4.. so i cant blame him too.. his answering technique skills require improvement.. a few more sessions w me.. i think it might help alittle.. at nite.. he did his sch assignments.. poor kid.. so much work to do.. haha.. my aunt reminded me nt to let him play the com too much, in fear of his eyesight.. i had to listen to her right? so i forbade him to use the com at nite.. he showed me he had a big attitude.. when he cant play com.. he turned to huan zhu gege.. oh ya.. btw.. his hw.. english essay.. i was really amazed at the way he chose qns..

he had an assignment to write an essay on drugs abuse and teenagers.. he was given 3 options..
qn1. if u were a superhero, how wud u wipe out drug abuse in singapore. he din wanna do tt cos he said it was tough.
qn2. write a story based on the 5 pictures below
qn3. write a story on drug abuse using at least 5 of the words in the list. the list consisted of a lot of words related to drug abuse like arrested. family. abusing drugs. drug rehab centre.

he chose qn2.. before he even started. he asked me for help. "can u explain the pictures to me?"
isnt tt stunning? if u dun understan the pictures which u were goin to write abt.. why choose tt qn?!

the first pic showed a boy w a box labelled w a skull n a crossed bones below it. then at the shoulder of the boy had a tiny drawing of a devil characterised by the horns n the fork. i asked him wat does the skull represents.. he said he duno.. XD.. tt was kinda frustrating, wasnt it?
den i asked him wats the thing at the boy's shoulder? he said, "nothing much". i was so gek!
i asked him if he knew abt the angel n devil appearing in cartoons when ppl make decision.. den he "OH YA! in tintin, the captain has the angel n devil thing!" wtf!? if u watched b4... u are expected to know!

nxt pic shows a boy w the mouth open in doped mode, lying on the ground.. w some pills in his hand. i asked him to describe the pic.. he said he duno. XD i asked him wat will happen if someone takes drugs. he said he duno. i asked him if he ever watched tv drama which had drugs appearing.. he said NO.. a firm NO.. i wanted to slap him. so much huan zhu ge ge.. and he dares to tell me NO.. i told him wtf did erkang eat in huan zhu 3.. "OH YA! but tt isnt poison." when the hell were we talkin abt poison.. i was talkin abt drugs all along.. sian diao! den he told me when u took drugs u feel high, light feathery.. OMG.. i seriously duno wat he learnt from all the drama he watched.

to think tt he showed me so much attitude after tt.. n watched huan zhu again on my tv.. laughin hysterically at certain scenes he watched over n over again.. n giving tt pitiful look n askin again n again to play the com.. he even sat on the chair infront of the com n refused to move away.. if he cant use, qk cant use too? wat kinda mentality is tt? tt's my laptop.. even my mom has to move away when i want to use it. it is MINE!

den suddenly.. i decided to lecture him.. i told him to stop the vcd he was watching n started shootin him like a machine gun. tellin him how many careless mistakes he made.. how he shud watch some useful stuff n not huan zhu.. even if he watched cartoons, he should watch better ones n not blue cat. wtf blue cat! the graphics sux n it is made in china.. nt tt i despise chinese cartoon production, their themes really cant match w the real world (chinese propaganda too).. jus look at blue cat.. XD

den as usual, qk's reprimanding was too OVER.. he cried.

sunday! he did a maths paper n english paper.. the english was horrible.. i dun wanna talk abt it.. COPY oso can copy wrongly.. he SPEAKED.. when the paper always wrote he SPOKE.. zai
maths was quite well done.. act the paper was too easy.. i told him he could only make max 2 careless mistakes.. den he really got 2 careless mistakes.. XD i shud haf said 0.

let him watched stephen CHOW's journey to the west.. 月光宝盒 2 cds.. he had a great laugh.. den i was too tired.. went to slp.. i duno wat he did after tt.. maplestory? i cant be bothered.. my aunt came over, had dinner took him home.. i din know anything.. slpin XD.. too tired..
i can vaguely rmb my aunt thanked me.. lol

i guess my nxt few wkends will be like this too.. unemployment.. sigh..
i am stilling eating oranges..

broken orange for cny?!

broken orange

如果紧闭双眼 深层清晰
浓茶中可见闪相
残亮至死
凭是我的工作
旺是我价值
这一些灿烂
夺目彩色经已不关注 没法看清楚了
在两息之间
只可以活着
代表残色的爱

quite a lot of ppl are after this song.. haha.. it feels really gd to haf it on my com..

youtube has got young folks as featured video.. interesting.. sry young folks.. i've lost some interest in u.. since chinese new year is coming.. i shud jus concentrate on broken oranges.. anyone want some for the new year? i am willing to share..

now lcy sms me telling me how he saw 2 dogs making love while he is having nite training.. interesting life.. hope i see those too.. XD.. tts lame..

no one is online.. or hardly any ppl whom i can talk to.. sigh.. lets get back to orange then.. blue isnt a nice feeling nor is it a nice color..

reflections

thanx peiyi!
-for introducing me a job to work for your aunt. it was an interesting experience but unfortunately, dont think i am really suited for it. i lack the skills and more imptly, i guess it is my mindset problem. it feels sucky to be a quitter, well.. it shud be gd for ur aunt too.. it isnt worthwhile payin for someone who cant do the job well.. XD

my first working exp. as a telemarketer.
this job requires really gd speaking skills, or at least able to control one's emotions and talk nicely to the client over the phone. it's quite frustrating when u cant meet ur target - arranging a meeting for the client w the finanical adviser. thanx lilian (aunt) for teaching me some techniques but i think it is v hard for me to overcome my style of "respecting" others' decision. working is tough, for the money, ppl has to play the role of a "irritating" sales promoter. when rejection is in ur face, one still has to smile n keep a nice tone to slowly persuade n draw interest from tt person.. this is an exact reverse of my personality. if one doesnt want to talk to me, i jus walk away.. XD.. life.. reality of adulthood.. all for the money..

i really hoped i jus got one person to arrange a meeting w lilian.. at least i did something, achieved something. the best potential client told me tt he isnt v active into investments, so if a meeting session will be a waste of time for the adviser. natural reaction from someone like me " i understand ur position.. thank you" i guess i am really screwing up alot.. sorry lilian.. it feels weird calling peiyi's aunt lilian too.. nvm.. i am an adult alr.. i shud call all adults by name.. XD

it is v nice of lilian to actually pay me.. for i din complete any assignment given. my mom said although i feel bad, i haf to accept the fact tt i did work, jus tt there isnt any product.. sigh.. now i sorta live in guilt.. haha.. peiyi! this time, i will not even try to evade from the OIC (i did intend to T(reat)IC).. lol.. lessen my guilt a little? haha..

basically, i do have some kind of idea how office life is like.. and i can understan wat some of my frens say abt office work.. boring.. lonely.. and stuff.. i think i prefer a lonely environment to do work.. jus like when i study.. enjoying time alone.. loner.. tts why i am an introvert..

no more work alr.. now.. it feels so gd to haf the song broken orange.. the music..
after weeks of searching.. and giving up and searching again..i finally got it.. thanks to baidu post! chinese are really gd at getting hard to reach songs. they are so enthusiastic abt sharing their songs too.. i love this.. if only majority of the chinese are like this.. life again..

my parents are kinda excited tt i actually tried out work.. my mom loves to listen to me talk abt my exp.. jus tt i dun like to share w her.. lol.. my dad thought i was really tired from work after i came home.. feeling kinda low, i din haf the appetite to eat initially.. but.. i do get hungry.. lol.. i guess my parents are jus happy to see their son grow up.. i grow up everyday.. all the best to everyone at work.. hope lilian finds a persuasive n eloquent speaker.. haha.. one more thing.. i lack the confidence to sell my "product" cos i think i really noe too little abt it to really haf a confidence boost.. lol.. back to tt "Feeling" theory.. i jus dun haf the feel for telemarketing.. tryin it out was something fun.. but unfortunately.. let's be optimisitic! :D at least i tried..

ty for the opportunity for a job in a CBD.. woohoo.. now i've worked in the CBD.. big deal.. lol..
it is cool..

val if u are looking at this.. i am charismatic no more.. lol..

who wants broken orange for chinese new year?