making mistakes at the most appropriate times!

silly me! how careless too!

finally i RE-applied for uni.. isnt tt a great thing! this time another incident occurs.. thanks to my carelessness (not reading carefully and assuming everything is too simple) ya ya big ego!

now i have 3As and 2Bs, when i shud have only 3As and 1B.. when was i exempted from Mother Tongue by MOE?! haha.. now i have to produce documents to support tt exemption! even the online application form is v helpful, they gave me some hope as they allow amendments even after u've submitted the form.. yeah, changes to course options.. how?!

i guess i can jus relax n get ready to call tml to see if anythin can be done..

choosing the right career is too hard a decision to make now.. i am nt tt mature really.. growing up.. growing up..

peaceful life w/o worries =D this life wont come! haha..

i will do wat i like in future..

anyw, arsenal really got tt fighting spirit.. they deserve praise.. man utd is jus on a high, i really wish them all the best in EPL n use all their luck in winning the league, European Cup, haha.. it will be AS ROMA's! muahahaha..

2 wks of course..

course is ending soon.. the wonderland period is going to end.. really soon..
back to the more regimental kind of lifestyle and the "LLST" attitude again..

heard tt kam wai earned himself 19 extras while we were on course.. i wonder how he does tt?!?! nvm.. if he doesnt change his attitude in 1sir, tts wat he will get.. i think he expected it to be coming in the first place..

i am starting to miss ppl here n there.. classmates.. soccer pals..

talking about soccer, i played so many times in PLC during the 2 wk course.. shooting kinda improved a little w practice.. scoring quite a no. of goals.. really nice morale booster..

live firing was really amazing, esp the backblast.. i pity my calves.. i am really glad i hit all my targets - bullseye!! at least i din waste the $2800 given to me. lol

i am back home again with some thoughts

it feels great to be home again.
i really hope i can stop time n stay at this moment :D
listenin to lovely songs while thinking.

my mom did give me a gd wake up call, reality check. hitting right on target for certain issues concerning me. i need to really stay focus. =D

for me to stay focus - a certain maturity is required which often comes with a high degree of seriousness which really destroys the happy side of me. i'll try.

Q

keep on moving

i am back to normal mode again.. i regen health too fast.. or is it someone using health regen on facebook.. i think i am too bored recently to go to facebook n press some buttons. i think i am being irritating mind reading others.. anyw, it is supposed to be irritatingly useful to get in touch w ur frens esp when u havent got any topic to talk abt..

there are weird yet caring ppl arnd, sending me an email encouraging me. thanks ugly bunny! it is more ugly than spastic.. =D at least i have alot of frens.. or i have a few dependable frens.. i am not alone in this lonely world.. (sounds emo)

this wkend, i tried to talk to different ppl i havent been talkin to since god noes when.. it is kinda interesting to communicate w old talking pals.. mayb this is the way to cure my "no life" illness..

there is this immature n mature self in me.. the immature portion is always dominant.. i thank everyone in my life for being there.. i will continue to move forward.. anyw, i kinda like ns even though it gives u all kinda shit.. shit really shit..

trouble at home.. problems w myself..

i was kind of discouraged when i looked up nus to re-apply med. this sinking feeling when i saw the same old pt system which includes PW. i was rejected once, i really dun think i will be shortlisted for interview w the same old grades. even if i was shortlisted, how am i going to speak well when i am not even updated on current affairs, not to say those regarding healthcare. studyin med isnt a passion or anything, it is jus an alternative since i oso duno wat i want.

look ahead, wat career can i get? my mom has been wanting to talk abt my uni re-application since she reached home. i jus get this annoyed feeling tt everytime when i am back home, i will be reminded to do certain things, or get into some discussion which probably wud end up without any conclusion. my parents jus want to noe or assurance wats my final opinion on my uni applications. the discussion which had undergone for several times in the past, will end up without any real conclusion. even i can predict the conclusion - let's set wat we've discussed tonight as the newest update. y do u need so many updates?!? it is jus irritating n draining on me (which i cant explain how).. now my mom is kinda turned off n she left me alone when i raised my voice. she commented tt i shudnt talk to her like how i talk in camp (bringing army back home).. i really dun understand wat my mom is thinking, i guess she is fed up w my attitude too..

i have to agree tt i am much fiercer in camp, talkin to ppl w more authority n kinda unreasonably. but i never even spoke to her in tt manner. i was jus really irritated by her keep wanting to initiate a discussion.

wat to do? i can jus put the blame on myself.. lacking in confidence, inability to look far ahead --> useless me. i jus created problems for myself n got myself into a frustrated state, which den caused trouble at home.. sigh.. frankly speaking, i would rather be in camp now.. a place to escape from these troubles.. i am jus a coward running away. boo me..