it's been quite a long time since..

i blogged!

these few weeks contained quite a number of surprises.

1. learning that i was selected to go for another course. however, it appears that my name wasnt in the list so far. thats really something i wished

2. wearing the MATAS again. this time it was much more comfortable. however the load i carried wasnt really light. i guess i had a pretty decent attempt performing the role of sect comd and gunner. maybe the distance walked wasnt really that much but i managed to tank the weight.

3. people "arrowing" me to do things. people not helping by doing things differently against the rules. people who always bend the rules but insist that i should not. sometimes nsf really doesnt have much say.

today i lost my cool. it is like filling a glass with water. once the water is reaching the brim, someone pours away the water with anger. once again, it can start to be filled again. i admit it is a lousy analogy but anyways, this negative cycle keeps me alive in a miserable place. yeah, 1sir is a miserable place.

today i had a 16km run in the ECP. the run was enjoyable when the few of us ran together, waited for each other. the company of your friends is one of the main factors to keep you going during the mundane run. returning home was really nostalgic.

i asked her for directions and having a chance to talk to her was simply marvelous. seeing the places we went to before near her formal residence brought back wonderful memories. it is the rare few times we could meet which made these memories so unforgetable. flashbacks flood to me resulted an "emo" qk now. lol.

how i wish i could stay at home and not report back to camp. how i wish i could call her tonight and have a chat. haha. that's just my wishful thinking. haha. today is pleasant enough to let me sleep in peace. let's hope for a better tomorrow!