distractions

troubles.. never ending..
trying to understand the topics.. sometimes trying too hard..
worrying abt unnecessary issues..
the tuition grant application.. it used to be nothing to worry abt.. now i have to..
waiting for the reply from ICA.. root of all problems
ppl advising me to apply for an overseas uni and if possible, study abroad..

the reasons they give me are perfectly acceptable and seriously worth considering. however, did they ever think abt the consequences or what might happen if i really fly.
if there is a real intention to fly, it will be wise to just withdraw from the tuition grant scheme. however what if i am not going overseas, then the tuition fees will be a bomb.
fine, i get the tuition fees and i fly. who suffers? my parents. they are held responsible for my voiding of the bond/contract.

it's said that one will know when one grows up. yea, i am feeling all the pressure of growing up. i cant seem to please anyone. it is affecting me somehow.. now.. sigh.. just hope someone can understand me alittle more.. think from my perspective.

i bless myself.