goin back

this wk, i have been emotionally unstable.. after the insomnia spell, i finally went to slp after watchin all the GTO dramas.. too shag to think - jus slp.. this is bad for health.. but i dun think i have any other choice, for it is already over..

spent my day watching films, dramas on crunchyroll.. all the weird films, hk, jap, korean etc.. some are really interesting while others are jus plain dumb? i wonder how they can decide to film somethin lidat e.g. prince of tennis.. all the stunts and tricks in anime transformed into real-life action.. dot dot dot, wat else can i say?

i've slpt enuf today.. in the morning, in the afternoon.. later at night.. i guess i will be charged up for the fucked up delta.. mood - adjusted alr i think.. but delta remains fked up.. i dun care..

i miss myself.. lively.. not much worries.. talkin rubbish in sch everyday.. disturbing others.. playin soccer.. let me try since i jus listened to 一路向北, so 不要 kb.. 6 days will pass quickly.. i have alr given up any hope on any fri book outs.. this brings back memories of her, my constant changing of my stand to accommodate, to make me feel better.. less the expectation, less the disappointment..

i muz be strong, cant let ppl to worry abt me, esp my mom..
heal me.. i can only depend on songs now..